I miss you

I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him so badly, till today, I still feel like I have been dreaming all these days. Always wanted to wake myself up desperately from this terrible nightmare.

but the reality is, he left :'(

I WANT TO EAT SOMETHING, FOOOOOOD! I AM HUNGRYYYYYYY!
and yes, there's plenty of food bought by my uncle this morning.
BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
I DONT FEEL LIKE EATING THEM!

I DONT FEEEEEL LIKE EATING FOOD THAT MUM SUGGESTED TO ME,
she says she wants to cook it for me. all of them are OUT OF MY LIST!
yelled at her just. HMMMMMMMMMMPHH!
NO BIHUN SOUP! NO SOBA! NO MAGGI MEE! NO PORRIDGE!
NO VEGETABLES! NO CHICKEN SOUP! NO NOODLES! NO RYE BREADDD!
they used to be my fav fooooooood!
BUT NOW, I DONT EVEN FEEEL LIKE HAVING THEMMMM!

MY MOOOOOOOOD SWINGSSSSS! OMGGGGGG! I'M HAVING SLIGHT DEPRESSION NOW! I HAVEN STARTED MY STUDIES FOR FINALS and YET IM LEAVING TO BKK SOON! IT'S LIKE NOT STARTING EVERYTHING FROM ZERO! IT SEEMS LIKE FOREVER I GOT NO TIME TO STUDY! SO MANY EXCUSES OF NOT STUDYING! HAVE TO CONSIDER THIS CONSIDER THATTTTTTTTTTT!!! WHYYYYY?!?@?!@??#@?$3

WENT OUT TO GET MY SPECS! COULDN'T GET A SUITABLE ONE AFTER SO MANY SHOPS! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I AM NOT HAPPY NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! NOT HAPPPPY! NOT HAPPYYYYY! SUPRE DUPER UNHAPPPPPPPPPY! AND YET I DON'T KNOW WHO SHOULD I CALL FOR! IT SEEEEMS LIKE NOBODY IS THERE FOR MEEEE! OMGOMGOMGOMGOGMGOMGOMGOGMG!

I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT! I DON'T KNOW WHAT I DEMAND FOR!I'M HAVING SLIGHT DEPRESSION NOW! MAYBE IM JUST SEEKING FOR ATTENTION. I hate myself sometimes. just forget bout me.

I'm going out for some fresh waffles in gelare, e@curve.

对于不喜欢的人,
必须笑脸相迎,
不是虚伪, 而是教养 :)

人会变化,
不喜欢的人不一定永远不喜欢 ;
一个笑容,
有可能让他变成喜欢的人 :)

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Daily horoscope :))

Sagittarius Oct 3 2010
Don't give up now, Sagittarius. You are almost at the finish line when it comes to a personal goal of yours. This is something that you have pursued on and off for quite some time, occasionally losing hope but then picking it back up again on a whim. Keep your eye on the prize and you will be able to make significant progress. Meanwhile, romance also beckons with a chance encounter that could leave you feeling hopeful about a new relationship. If you already have a significant other, use this time to get closer.
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a great day :)

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG! I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPRESS HOW HAPPY I AM AT THIS MOMENT!!

IM GOING CRAZY NOW!
What a great day ;)

thank god, and everybody there :)
I really appreciate it!

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today, went to market to get coconut milk for my mum as she's cooking vegetable curry tonight :D

while I was passing by this vegetable stall, I saw petaiiiiiiiiii!! OMG I fell in love with petai recently :))) love it. yes yes, I know it's smelly. but I really love how it taste. especially with sambal. *slurps*

so, when I was back home. I told my mummy. "maaa! I bought something special for you...", I said. then I proudly took the petai out and continue my sentence. "to cook for me!" HAHAHA

and mum replied. "eh! I bought it today and they delivered to me this morning!"

AWWWWWWWWWW. HOW SWEET OF MUMMY! :)))))) she has never been cooking petai before, not even once. and when she knows I love petai, she wanted to cook for me! eeeeeeeeeeiks. love mummy so muchhhhhhhhgh :D

and, it reflects how bad I treat mummy. buying petai for her, and ask her to cook for me :P

love you, my dearest mummy :)

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Mela mela :) real good!

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dayi

you know,
I miss my dayi,
she's in heaven, as well.

the night I came back from the funeral,
I dreamt bout you!
is it you that came to my dream?
I never manage to say hi to you though,
but the feeling of you is so real.

I miss you lots ♥
and everyone here too.

Ah Hun Ah Jim

My sis wanted to tag me along to visit her, one week ago.

I refused, as I'm not feeling really well.

Next time, I said.

Sis then text me again,

saying that she always "baibai" for us, everywhere, every god.

she came to visit my dad, her cousin, eventhough she's ill.

she's grateful for everything she has :)

and yes, I regretted not to visit her on that day.

There isn't next time.

the night before they're back from her place,

she was admitted to hospital, again.

I thought she'll be better,

at least there's someone taking care of her, in time of emergency.

I really hope she'll be better,

as I haven't thank her for what she did for us.

On Saturday, while I was using facebook,

I saw her post, saying that her aunt passed away.

first thing came to my mind,
something is not right, plus parents are not around.

Until the 2nd day, sis told me she's away, to a better place.
I get to know that she's with all her family members by her side,

and went away peacefully :')

and I saw this post from FB.

她,一个坚强,勇敢,慈悲,度量大却命苦的女人....我们最敬爱最敬佩的姑姑.从小因为家庭大弟妹多生活清苦,所以必须照顾十多个弟妹,婚后生了三个小孩却要含辛茹苦的一手把她们带大,当中没有丈夫的陪伴,没有丈夫的关怀,也没有丈夫的疼爱,一直挨了三十多年.....好不容易挨到孩子都成材了,她...却得了癌症,一生当中都还来不及享福却还要被病痛所折磨,她的人生从没好过,但她依然坚强勇敢的坚持到今天.那一天,她对她的丈夫说:你知道我这一生为了你吃了多少苦吗?她停了一下,接着说:但我没有后悔也没有遗憾.....一个女人当生命快走到尽头时,她竟然还不想她那几十年来不负责任的丈夫对自己有所愧疚,而说出了这一番话,她一生为爱所付出的,她的伟大还有她心胸的度量,让人感动,让人敬佩

words says it all.
she's a women that respected by everyone.
I'm impressed by her forgiveness.

she's always present in our family gathering,
although she's not our immediate family member.
she treasures the relationship with us.
I'm impressed by her treasure-ness. I cant find a better word.

the moment she's diagnosed with cancer,
doctor told her that she has only 4 months left.
yet, she's living for another 4 years.
positive thinking, I believe it is.

cancer patient usually die after suffering, but she isn't.
she went away peacefully :)

karma. I believe in karma. I think it's karma.
she left her body peacefully.

I believe she'll have the special pass to the heaven :)
as for all the good deeds that she has done in her life.

goodbye, dearest ah hun ah jim,
you'll always be in our memories.

Ahhh :) I can actually blog from my phone :))))) anyways, just started to study for tomorrow's test..

hmmmm.. I'm always last minute.. procrastinator... :(
I hate myself. Sigh.

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Yun's happily ever after :)

mmm :)

the yellow dress day ; yun's wedding day ♥

yun, the bride, the prettiest lady of the day

Wishing yun a happy marriage and

hoping that your life together

will be rich in joy and love.

most importantly,
幸福にその後ずっと loving happily ever after ♥

超感人飆淚廣告-父女篇

was watching this with my sis.
both of them cried :'(
watched the 2nd time, I still have no feeling towards it.
and both of their eyes are already RED, again!

but, I don't think it's very touching. hmm.
am I cold blooded? I wonder.
so, if you found it not touching,
please tell me ya, at least I'm not alone ;)

and, I found another one which is very touching *tears*



:'(

enjoy.nights ♥

I cannot imagine that I actually went for singing sompetition last time.

I BET THAT WASN'T MIN! OMG! =x

that's not min. that's not min. that's not min.

haha. so many posts today :)

time for a good night sleep!

BABOOOBABOO.

OMG! I just realised that part of my analysis in the OBU project

which the due date is on 11th August!

OMGOMGOMG! it's already 21st now!
scare die me - inspired by wen :P

oh! and tomorrow is my papa's bday :))))

Happy Birthday to my dearest PAPA!
MIN LOVESSSSS PAPA THE MOST ♥

had steamboat in mich house :DDD

I'm fed-uped with outside foods recently.

but, I'm still in love with my subway sandwiches!

my all time fav :)

and my dream is to..

OPEN A SUBWAY RESTAURANT!

HAHAHA. laugh all you want. bleks!

SIS OUTING DAY!♥

Sex and the City II in GOLD CLASS with er jie.
luxuries, in and out of the movie.
had 30 meatballs and a packet of cheezels. yums!
thankQ erjie ♥

us in the washroom :)

after movie, went back to fetch sanjie since she's alone at home.
no idea of where to spend our day,
and they slept @____@

sis is watching it.
LUUU KAAA SIIII! he's so nice and cuteee x)
AWWWWWWWWW!

lastly, I ♥ my new blog layout!

just back from times square ;)

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!

SHOPPING IN TIMES SQUARE IS WAY TOOO FUN!

There's like DAMN A LOT of shops, but they sell similar stuff.

When price war happens, consumer get the most benefit! AH!AH!
The clothes there are like SUPER CHEAP!
only RM19.90, you can get a dress!
a decent one, and it's not LALA at all.

the cardigans, the SUPER IN THING now,
selling at RM25 ONLY!
can you believe it? OMG! this is CRAZY!

I bought another cardigan from Banana Republic,
It costs me RM125, after 50% discount ._.

I know the quality may differ.
but for the price paid, will compromise right ;D
RM25 here, can't even order a pasta from Italiannies.

and all the ballet pumps, sandals.
all the varieties they have.

the most important point that I want to note that,
you don't have to consider whether to buy that item for very long.

means, since it's cheap,
JUST GRAB IT! why bother to think more? :D

the purchasing power in times square is way greater
as compared to in OneU.

For RM 200, I brought them back home with me :)
2 sandals, 2 dresses, 2 alarm clocks,
2 teeshirt, 2 cups of kindori icecream and
the parking ticket which cost RM10.

AWWWWW! I love shopping cheap stuff, sometimes.

maybe in future,
Hermes will be the CHEAP STUFF for me too! nyek.

I think I should update eh :P

learn to smile :)

:)

I think I should learn to smile more frequently.

do they have such courses?

sometimes,

I just don't know what reaction should I have.

and then,

I'll have no reaction at all.

i think my face is not born as a smiley face like this :)

so, when I have no reaction at all,

it may look like this :

perhaps this :\

I apologise if my expression irritates you.

or maybe you don't even care about it.

I truly envy peoples who smile all the time.

they seem to be so happy every moment,

no matter what happened.

even when the sky are falling,

they are still smiling. i think.

how good to be a person like this,

I must learn this :)

or is it about positive thinking?

I think I should have that as well.

I have really lots of negative thinking nowadays,

which I think I should SHOOO them away. aiks.

I think I need more confidence.

time to smile more often :)))))))

please don't kill me for posting this. both of you :)